Got to be a better way.

    I'm at a place in my life where I constantly count the time. I feel like my days go by so fast and I'm running out of time. I should have accomplished more in my life. I want so much more for myself and I have to get it.

    Money holds me back a lot. I'm always thinking about making money. Most of my time goes into it. What ever free time I have, I'm trying to sell something. When I could be doing homework. I've been like this for years. I put the dollar first, then the school work. No one ever pushed me to better in school. I was told to work hard and save my money. As I get older, I see the importance of education. I will not make it out of this whole without something to stand up on. I plan to learn and grow. I promise to push myself higher. Education is on my heart. I feel its my only way out. I have to go down this path. I want to be so much better. I want to have something to fall back on and I want my mother to be proud of me. I want to be different than what I'm used to. I don't want to struggle anymore.

 
    I can do so much better and have happiness. No money can buy that. I want to work and be happy and feel secure . I need a bigger check that last longer. I'm going push and get these credits up. My grades will stick with me. I can't keep a dollar in my pocket but I pray I can keep good grades on my transcript.

 

 

 

 

When I am in the moment

Hoping, growing wishing, yearning.

I want to grow and hope to win. I wish I could grab the star that's deep within.

I’m shining bright now and ready to be,

every thing that’s meant for me. It’s in my grasp,

I almost hold

Everything I dreamed, worth more than gold.

My past, present future, all wrapped in one. One day I’m flying, one day I’m down.

I will keep trying,

Feet off the ground.

I wish for the best.

This is just a test. I will succeed and I will conquer, this road is just a quest.

I will not fail, its not in this story and when I’m done I’ll dance in my glory.

My life in this moment a big happy mess. So happy and free but what's in the rest?

I’m growing and hoping,

What will I be?

Will I still be happy? Could I still be me?

Some people lose themselves

They change and grow bitter

Will I still shine bright? I feel dripped up in glitter. I am so refreshed and ready to be

Everything I ever wanted,

a better me.