An unexpected Start

 A couple of months ago my boss told my hours will be changing and I have to learn a new trade. I had to learn how to sort mail, (by street number), to the mail carriers at the post office I work at. I'm not a regular career employee,so any day things could change for me. I was content with the way things were. I was very comfortable with my old hours I had. I liked the regular 8-5 I had. The only issue was I couldn't go to school.

At first, I was very worried, uncomfortable and the change brought a lot of stress.It was new for me. I have to be at work at 6 am now.  At work,I felt like a burden to my co-workers. I felt like I was always in the way, asking questions. I always felt like I was working too fast because the old timers are slower. I feel like the older coworkers wish I wasn't there because their jobs are being cut . I am taking some of their hours and doing work twice as fast but I don't mean to. I just like to get the work done efficiently. I'm just being an honest worker. Everyday, I tell myself I'm there for one thing, money.(Money to support my family).

At home, I had to ask my family to help with my son. This was hard for me because I like to do everything for myself. I have to have his dad drop him off. I like to drop him off and pick him up but I had to give that up. I have to depend on my mother sometimes.  Asking for help was very hard for me but I realized its okay to be helped especially by the ones who care. Sometimes you have to sacrifice to do better.

 After all, I feel like this experience has been one of the best things that happened this year. Even though its something that I was afraid of and I didn't want it. Everything is working out.I got a chance to work earlier hours and go to school, something I've been wanting to do for a long time. This experience came right on time. I've never been so ready to give my all at school. These few weeks have been amazing I'm learning a lot about myself through this class and others. I have the ability to do better. Its great. I'm so proud of the little work I've already done. I'm starting to set goals and they are mine. I will reach them.

   Alchemy and a Simple Goal

Hearty precious to my soul
 Have you ever set a goal?
 Something worthy.
 Something new, fresh or bold
Wasn't easy but I have grown.

 Looking back I see the signs
 Wasn't wasted space, just on my mind.
 Open doors and opened blinds.
  I am happy,
  it is mine.

 I'll let the world come and see
 What I want and who I'll be.
 Now it is mine and mine to keep,
 this shinning light inside of me.
Like a dream I have a woke. Like my favorite song
someone just spoke. Something worthy
Something strong
Changing, wrapped up in my mind.
 I want new life and happy times
Its in my grasp
I'm in my prime.